I have been cleaning this room like months. Seriously, the new room is very prone to dust and particles since I am located at the out and topmost part of the house, not to mention that our house is one of the tallest residential houses along First Street.

I used to call my first own room, Highschool, definitely because I was in highschool mostly when I occupied the room which is being currently resided by our house helper. Then, comes Pink Room, which literally shows a palette of pink, purple and cream. Then, after the big break up with Carl, my father and I wanted a new room for me - Quasi. I was just moved with the color red. From pink where in if you put more vibrant contrast, making it more concentrated - Red; which reflects becoming into a more matured individual - almost, as it were, quasi.

Some daylight pictures.


Pink is now used by my youngest brother. Gray paint leftover was used to cover purple. But the pink stays. LOL


This is my swatch. Black, red, gray. There's some pink. Hahaha


This is where I spend 80% of my time when I am awake. Obviously.


West. I told you I need a daybed!!!! LOL. Soon, promise.


North side.


South. This is where the paint fumes are coming. Its been like 2 weeks since this was done and it still emits addicting fumes. LOL


East. Need a side bench. Soon promise. Forgot to tell the construction workers to put a hidden tube to hide the cables connected to the LCD TV. This is where I will put all pictures and eklavu. Need to attend some photoshoot. Hahaha

I know Quasi needs more improvement as if it still looks very DIY. This is a new start - Quasi: almost, as it were.

I was almost experiencing trance while dancing Loaded Man. Part of the routine is to turn around with your hips grinding. Until I realized that two of the construction workers at my aunt's house are watching me almost naked dancing! Aaaaaamp!!!!


Who wouldn't enjoy watching this French man?


North recycled window. Im pretty sure noone was watching me from here.


Here's the Christian School/Church. Some canteen or church people might have seen me amp!


And here is where the constructions were watching me!!!!


So I placed my two mattresses to block the view from outside.

I seriously need to contact someone to install the curtain rods.

History has made it mark again!

This time I let him decide. According to him, given the facts, he doesn't want to pursue. Likewise I said, lapses and risk behavior bring circumstantial events - and there were tons.

We both have arguments, though his are still dug from the past, almost from the time we started this. I guess it falls under the foundation and the starting line or he just can't forgive what had happened yesterday.



Open poll: If somebody asks you to change for you, would it be fulfilling to change it for other or for yourself? Definitely for yourself, right? Its called meddling with your intrapersonal dilemmas. If he has so many issues and firmly believes that we do not meet even halfway of our wavelengths and kept on rubbing that we're not destined for each other, its like a brass band waking you up in the wee hours of morning.

I might be the most apathetic person on earth but this was honed due to what happened in the past. If I accepted him as he was and as he is, all in love is fair, I should be receiving the reciprocity of it and not be bombarded with cloud 9 expectations to be molded into a new individual based on his intentions.

As what I told Gus, this may not be final. But if I have intrapersonal issues, based on clinical studies and my belief, the most effective way to reprimand is within and literally if the other has self-inflicting issues, too, shouldn't he be fixing himself first than forcing the former to fix it for himself?

At last. Im no squatter anymore. I can now peacefully sleep in my new room. I moved in two nights ago and the paint fumes were the best! LOL. Though I havent taken pictures of my new room yet because it will take me at least 4 months to save for a new day bed. The curtain rods are not yet installed, even the panels and picture frames are not yet bought. LOL

Pretty much I like it :) Thanks to the reflective insulation and gosh! It saves a lot that I do not have to turn on the AC often. Though the black tiles laminated with acrylic is a pain in the @ss! Seriously! I literally swept the floor 7x times today.

Major issue is the curtain rods because when they do the drilling, I have to sweep the floor again. The length of the red and white curtains I bought is freaking 90 inches - my ceiling is just like 87 or 85. LOL

The LCD mounting is designed for an elevated bed. Thats why, I need to buy a new bed soon. And of course, my all-classic cabling problem.



AC laptop, modem, router, RJ-11, RJ-45, speakers, lampshade



Component, VGA, RCA, coax, power cables.


P.S.
I named 'Highschool' my first room. Second one I recently left was Pink Room. What should I name my new one? Errr. Its an issue because I just cant put New Room on my location on my blog posts because in due time, it won't be new anymore. LOL

Mood: Dead Tired
Music: Mariah Carey - Obsessed
Location: New Room

An American client alighted from the elevator and was in awe. He just heard two Filipinos talking nonsense to his ears. These were the events happened inside the elevator:

One Filipino was on the 7th floor outside the elevator doors when it opened. The lift was going down to the ground floor.

Filipino outside elevator: Bababa? (rising intonation)
Filipino inside elevator: Bababa. (falling intonation)

The Filipino hopped in and left the American amused and confused while the doors close.

American client: Are these descendants of the Flintstones? Or this is just how simple their language is?

I have been experiencing senior moments recently, I FREAKING SWEAR!!!

I spent 30 minutes deciding which one I should be buying.


Kapitan Sino
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Or Who Moved My Cheese.
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Until I noticed that I will be late for work and I just gave the book which was my left hand was holding. Logic? I am born left-handed but my parents trained me to be right-handed. Change is the key, or I should adapt to change.

Dig?


Mood: Disoriented
Music: Ciara and Justin Timberlake - Love Sex and Magic
Location: Perimeter

Its been half of a quarter since I joined the company. It was exciting: my employee number is 005; kewl boss; a small feasible organization. Until my previous training supervisor invited me to apply for a training post for a law firm. 

Seriously, boredom at work is killing me. It is very ironic because my average idle time is 5 hours daily. Wasn't this I was wishing for when I was on the phones with Dell and Virgin Mobile USA? Skills set given that I am very inclined with computers even without people bragging I am good at it, humbly I will attest that I am pretty darn good with it! 

Maybe this is just a reflection of being dynamic. Like a DHCP server assigning varied IP addresses to terminals connecting to it, static IP will not practically work. I just cannot be stagnant with what i am doing especially if I have been doing it for years and been doing repetitive tasks as if I was blindfolded and still make the job done swiftly. Reason I didn't apply in any banks (No offense meant :) 

Teaching people is my passion and computers is my expertise. Likewise the other training supervisor advised, "Why not both?". After Dell closed, it ruined my career goal so I practically needed to start over. Also, as from what I could remember, I always say that I am a person who thirsts for limitless knowledge with all interviews I have attended, and its true!

I am talking nonsense here. The MRT is full of people and I am typing this entry while trying to balance myself while being sandwiched by people surrounding me. I guess I just need to do something productive (other than Facebooking) while at work. Not in the mood for fiction. I will try to dig some edu-nerdy-technical stuff from my room. I miss Dell Library. I miss being a student.

While composing this blog post, I realized that the only professional training experience on black and white was with ICT other than else, all were computers. Like my former co-trainer said that it won't harm if I will not try it. It wont waste my time because I seriously need to overcome this underconfidence level when applying for job posts out of my professional league. 

By the way, half of my new room was already paved with tiles and the base of the cabinet was already assembled and nailed. I hope before July arrives, I will have my beautiful rest without the drilling, hammering and dust that hinder my beauty rest. 

Pardon me. I just badly need someone to tap-pat-tap me or maybe I havent found someone whom I share my insights with. Again, beautiful people think alike! Or an individual who can correct my grammar on this post and convert FUN into binary yet still be glamourous and fab! LOL. Just bored, demotivated, quiet and sleepless recently.


Mood: Bored
Music: Mariah Carey - I Stay In Love
Location: MRT North Bound

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Sent from iPhone 

1. Multimedia messaging does not support sculpture, macrame, or interpretive dance.
2. Voice memo recordings totally don't sound like me. I don't sound like that, do I? Seriously?
3. Turned on adult content filter but everybody in my videos still has their clothes on.
4. Adding a task to calendar did not result in task getting done.
5. Clicked this blue "compass" icon but kept getting some stupid web browser.
6. Still no apps to cure the nagging feeling that I should've bought a Palm Pre.
7. The touchscreen is now on the back of the phone instead of the front.
8. Gone to the bathroom four times already today, and Remote Wipe hasn't worked once.
9. Spotlight search crashed with memory overload error trying to index my Harry Potter cosplay photo collection.
10. Tried out tethering, but I think I broke my finger smacking that phone around the pole.
11. Apple still hasn't fixed the no-hardware-keyboard bug.
12. "Cut" function does not apply to monthly bill.


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Since I am undergoing interviews regarding this. Might as well archive this.

Friday, 22 June 2007



How tragic would you feel as the interview told you, “I regret to inform you that we cannot accommodate your application unless you want to change your lifestyle”? As if I am a rotten tomato being repulsively thrown away to the trash bin. Five times of hearing this is enough.

I reviewed my CV, it seems that I have prepared it well with high-flying certifications and achievements from my previous schools and volunteer activities. But what’s wrong? It was the time that I realized that sexual discrimination is still existing even for a newly industrialized country such as Philippines.

Weeks have passed trying to regain my confidence back from attune to subtle differentiation. My friends persuaded me to have my hair cut short and change my lifestyle since career-wise, being a transvestite would make it so impossible to grow in the corporate world. The idea spun into my mind trying to figure out the consequences of becoming a man, at least physically. My wardrobe, my makeup, my stilettos, everything that I have invested would become useless.

Nobody knew that I was going to have my hair done, but I was with a close friend since I predicted that I wouldn't stand the sensation of distress as the hairstylist swooshed her razor-like blade onto my silky long hair. Immediately, I shopped for apparel and garments to fill in the large space of my cabinet because I put my “other” clothes into a separate bag.

But I was running out of financial resources. So I applied in a callcenter for a technical support post. I enjoyed working with the company, learned a lot, and working with fun people brings so much happiness, although not wearing my Manolo Blahnik, but from a Marikina-made pair of leather shoes I bought since I needed to go back to basics.

Ive been working out recently. Although I have to exert more effort since the estrogen, metaprogesterone and post anti-testosterone effects are still within my veins... taking steps one by one. I made my cabinet half-filled with the proper clothing I needed to cloak my previous identity. I haven't removed my glamorous shots of my former being in Friendster, but never, I would deny that I was once a princess trapped in a transvestite’s body.

Quoting an excerpt from my G4M/Friendster profile:

You might also wonder why I changed. If you really know me personally, you would know how I transitioned myself into a more acceptable well-being. I had no choice, I thought I could fight the flow and the rush of what's society has been telling me. This might be the weakest decision of my life. I had no regrets, neither be remorseful. Well, at least I have people who supported me. Besides, Ill always be FOXY.

Now, I am back to where I started. Trying to grasp the opportunities of working in a more complex yet judicious world of being employed in a multinational company. People forgive but can never forget.


Mood: Humdrum
Music: Darren Hayes (Spin) - I Miss You
Location: Dining Room

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Got this from email last year. Just reposting. For archiving purposes.



When you get suspicious that your significant other is cheating, be careful not to appear to be paranoid. You have to walk a fine line -- you don't want to make false accusations.

So, while I'm sharing this list of cheating red flags, I concede that it's a tricky situation. It's hard to be sure if someone's cheating, but protect yourself: Be vigilant, and pay attention to your mind and spirit within the relationship. But, at the same time, be careful not to let anxiety lead the way because unnecessary paranoia will just drive your lover away. Here are some red flags that may signal that your significant other is cheating:

1. Less Sex
Unless he's Superman, he can only have so much sex. So, if he's getting it from another source, you might notice. Whether it's another woman or a porn addiction -- even if he's not cheating -- a decrease in sex signals serious issues in the relationship.

2. Jumpy Cell Phone Habits
In a perfect world, we'd be open about sharing our correspondence with our significant others. Most of the time, we trust that we don't have to worry about who is texting or calling them. But, if you notice that he is getting protective and/or nervous when he gets calls or texts, it may be cause for alarm.

3. Gushing or Talking About Someone Suddenly
You know that exhilarating feeling you get when you meet someone new and exciting? You want to tell the world about him. One of my exes began talking about a guy a lot near the end of our relationship -- he just always seemed to be at her social gatherings that I didn't happen to attend. Sure enough, after she dumped me, she began dating him.

4. Disconnecting
Even though relationships ebb and flow naturally, if you're sensing that he's drawing away from you, then there may be someone else. Emotional disconnection should be investigated regardless of whether it's caused by cheating. There's a problem if he's not laughing or seeming as passionate as usual. It's hard to spread love/passion between two people, so the person who used to have it will feel it slipping away if it's being given to someone else.

5. He's Pulling "Houdinis"
If he's disappearing, traveling, or unavailable to the point where you are starting to wonder, then he could be cheating. Also, these times tend to take on a pattern because it's tough to synch up schedules, especially in secret.

6. His Friends Are Acting Strange
His friends will certainly remain loyal to him in most cases. They will not let you know what's going on, but they will definitely be racked with guilt, and their behavior may change slightly when they are around you while protecting his secret.

7. He's Being Caught in Lies About Other Things
If you catch him in a lie, your trust will naturally be damaged. Don't hold a grudge -- forgiveness is a good thing. You can forgive, but don't forget. If he consistently breaches your trust, it's establishing a pattern of behavior that leads to cheating. Do yourself a favor: If he keeps lying, whether these lies are big or small, get out while you can and don't let him talk his way back in.

8. Been There, Done That
I always say: "Once a cheater, always a cheater." If he's done it before, he's definitely capable of doing it again. It has nothing to do with you, which is why you can't say that he cheated on his previous lover because she didn't keep him happy. Cheating is a self-serving act in which the cheater doesn't take his significant other into consideration. If someone is upfront with you that he's made mistakes in the past, maybe give them a chance --— but make it a long probationary period before you let your guard down.

9. Your Gut Tells You So
Don't ignore your sixth sense. People are gifted at sensing when something doesn't feel right. Whether there are red flags in your relationship that are clueing you in or not, if something feels off, don't ignore this feeling. Usually that suspicion is correct, and something intangible may have led to you figuring it all out.


Mood: Blah
Music: Wondergirls (Wonder Years) - Nobody (Rainstone Remix)
Location: Dining Room

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Since my new room is still a work in progress, I had to move the DSL modem downstairs. I never had problem with PLDT myDSL's ZyXel P-600 when I had it set to router mode since my connection is PPPoE (crap right?)

When I moved the modem earlier, I might have swapped the RJ-11 from the extension line to the Line in port of the filter. Ergo, no IP address. I reset the modem/router. I forgot that this crappy PLDT do not give the bridge settings over the phone.

I called the technical support. I was given the instructions how to connect through PPPoE. I might have forgotten the username and password but it connected well. It is annoying to have PPPoE because it disconnects from time to time and I experience intermittent loss of connection.

I asked for a service call so an onsite technician will setup the bridging for me since they do not want to give the instructions how to set it to router mode. They said that they stopped such requests and I need to contact a private technician!!!! PUTANGINA!

Being resourceful, found some knowledge based articles to setup this crappy modem/router to work on bridge mode.

Setting crappy ZyXel P-600 to router mode via crappy PLDT myDSL connection:

1. Set your computer to static IP:
IP: 192.168.1.33
Subnet: 255.255.255.0
Gateway: 192.168.1.1

2. Save.

3. Open a browser and access the gateway.

4. Login to the admin account.
Username: admin
Password: 1234

5. Click ignore to bypass change of admin password.
You will be redirected to the status page when bridge mode.
Take note of the VPI/VCI values

6. Go to Network > WAN > Internet Connection tab
Mode: Routing
Encapsulation: PPPoE
username: (ask the crappy PLDT)
Password: (ask the crappy PLDT)
Multiplexing: LLC
VPI: 0
VCI: 100

7. Click Obtain an IP Address Automatically

8. Click Apply

9. Go to Network > LAN > IP tab
IP: 192.168.1.1
Subnet: 255.255.255.0

10. Click Apply

11. Go to Netowrk > LAN > DHCP tab
DHCP: Server
IP pool: 192.168.1.100
Pool size: 50

12. Go to Network > NAT > General tab
Check Activate Network Translation
Check SUA Only

13. Click Apply.

14. Go to Maintenance > Tools > Restart tab.

15. Restart your modem.

12. Click Apply

Now, I will have 5 hours of sleep or less because I need to wake up early to attend the Body Jam class later and I spent 2 hours working on this connection. PUTANGINA talaga nila! Mga inutil! Mga bobo! Mga tamad!


Mood: Furious
Location: Living Room

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Didn't I just mention that designing your own room DIY is tiring and frustrating? Due to the limited constraints on the specifications of my new room, I have to make so many adjustments to balance the aesthetics, safety and functionality of what I will be installing in my room.

I bought two warm pin lights, a steel drop light with red highlight but I couldn't find a perfect center ceiling light! The original plan was to customize the ceiling by boxing and hiding four cool bright fluorescent lights placed underneath the edges of the box that will be installed hanging on the wall. But since the ceiling is low and it was accustomed to be built in a sloping plane figure, I had to find a ceiling light that is almost fixed (not hanging) against the asbestos ceiling.

After a number of attempts of finding lighting fixtures, and so I found this. The concave glass with zebra-like frosting on it. At least with this, I can change the light to warm to bright using energy saving lights depending on my mood.



Tomorrow, I will be looking for black tiles. My father and I found one but the f*cking supplier didn't order what we specified.


Mood: Excited
Location: Perimeter

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Photo taken last week.



I wonder if FTTP will be available for consumer within the next 2 years?
I hoooooooooope so.


Mood: Blah
Location: Perimeter

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Bawal ang pork... bawal ang beans...

Quoting from a Filipino commercial. Recently, I have been experiencing senior moments. Being forgetful on the things I need to bring to the gym or to work daily, lower back pain and erratic sleeping pattern disorders.

I do not know if this is because I am not used into a room full of disorganized stuffs or the night shift schedule since I was in the morning shift when I was with Dell.

Seriously, my room badly needs to be done so I can rest well. Sleeping in my old room with full of dust, allergens, boxed stuffs is depressing and unhomely.

Gosh! I want a new LCD TV. I have been eyeing on Devant LCD since it is the cheapest I can find here. Even cheaper than CHanghong! Whatchuthink?


Mood: Restless
Music: Wondergirls - Nobody
Location: Perimeter